Maybe now this will be different.
14 April
"Here I am again on my own..."
Been a hectic and stressfully month it has. First of all I didn't get my license, mainly because P decided that he can't take me driving at all. Not so happy at all let me tell you.
J and I are doing fine, I wish things could be better between us, but things such as H has caused us many problems. Right now we are looking for an apartment, but we can't seem to find any way to get up enough money, considering the fact that every time we have some saved up one of the cars breaks. Last time it was the breaks and the ball joints. Eventually we will find one.
H moved back in...then moved out a week later. P said it was because of issues with the place she was staying when she didn't have a day off. But her mom decided to ream me out because it is all my fault. That didn't make me very happy.
WM is more stressful then ever. I got hurt about a month ago, and because I am still in pain I finally went to the doctors today. I know, I am stubborn. So it didn't help that I was already stressed now I have to deal with intense pain too. I am sick of all of it. But because I live so far away I can't find a job easily. Hopefully when we move that will make it much easier, well see.
J and I are fine, I do not take that back, but we aren't doing well individually. Because of our stress our relationship has been taking a strain. I am trying not to take anything out on him, and he is doing the same, but all I want to do lately is cry. That is the only way I know how to deal with stress. And that is frustrating him more. Because he has no credit he can't get a credit line through the bank, so now he is upset with the fact that we might have to stay with P a little longer, and all though I can't blame him, I wish he wouldn't stress over that. At least H isn't here anymore. That should make it a little easier.
So that is pretty much all that is up right now. I will probably have more soon.
