Maybe now this will be different.
31 December
Happy New Years and Merry Christmas.
I haven't been really talkative lately. I am not sure why, but I just not. J and I are doing okay, I suppose, as best as can be I guess. We have been together for over two years now, and I am not even thinking about getting married.
Work sucks, can't expect much though. It is after-Christmas-I-have-to-shop-or-do-returns month. I am not liking this at all. GRRRR....
G and I went to the aquarium and Quincy Market last week. I love the city. I am thinking about moving there...I would very much so like that!
Now I must watch some TV before bed.
17 December
We have had the past 3, yes three, days off. Monday another storm hit us real bad. This winter has really sucked. We either had no snow or we get a shitload of snow all in one day! Grr. So then Tuesday is our normal day off, which is okay. We planned to do somethings that we normally do on our day off. The today, definitely wanted to go to work, we drove down the road and spun out. I don't mean a little slip, I mean complete 180 turn with a choice of the river or a fairly large snowbank. Thankfully J is talented enough to put us in the snowbank. We called work right away, partly to find out if we could stay home, oartly to let them know we would be late. The manager that picked up the call, after we told her we spun out, told us to go home and to come in early tomorrow. I am not thinking so much. I would rather miss two days of work then to go in early and have them abuse me for more than 8 hours. I am not sure what is going to happen. I was so scared this morning. I cried so hard. I am not sure why it scared me as much as it did. But I couldn't help it. So anyways that makes 3 days off in a row. Not so happy I am not. So I am completely bored...makes sense for someone who can't leave the house. I finished a scrapbook page. I looked up some information on apartments. I played Riven. My god am I boring on my days off!
10 December
I am sick....sick sick sick. *pout* I am not sure how I got this cold/sore throat, but I want it to go away. I hate being sick, and this hurts!
I am going to see G today. Ever so happy about this. I might actually be able to work *with* her, instead of half way across the store. So happy.I haven't seen G in 2 days, and even then I hardly saw her. If A is working tonight then we will go to her house for an hour and a half to stay away of WM.
We don't have a Christmas tree yet. We should be getting one soon I hope. But we won't be able to decorate it until 2 days before Christmas. What the hell is the point of a tree then? I think that if we are going to get one that late, then we should just save our money and not get one. We will see.
Have to get ready for work.
09 December
J an I ended up staying home Sunday because we were more than snowed in. We had the driveway snowblown, but the rest of the road wasn't even plowed yesterday. We finally went back to work yesterday...it was a very trying day. I was trying to explain things to people who looked as if they wanted to tear my head off. GRRRRR....... Like it is my fault they came to WM instead of staying home. This really annoys me to a great extent. By 1pm I was in so much pain..why, I have no idea. But it hurt greatly. My back was so painful that moving to lift anything almost made me cry. I worked through it. I can't stop where I work and I needed the money to make up for the weekend...so I didn't ask to go sit down or anything. I went to lunch and sat down and it hurt so much. So me being stupid and all I didn't tell anyone...not even J or G. Usually I tell them everything. When I went back from lunch I asked if anyone had some pain medicine, of course T did so I took some. I went on my last break at 7pm...supposed to be at six, and the medicine hadn't kicked in at all. So I sat with J and cried. I couldn't sit down or get up. I went back to work and I knew I had to get going in an hour so I just fought through it. I cleaned the whole area so that I wouldn't get in trouble by anyone. And left after 8pm because people don't know how to take breaks.
So J, G, and I went to the mall. J got me some medicine, Aleve it the best stuff in the world, and I didn't think had kicked in. We sat in some big red comfy chairs and when I got up my back was killing me. I had to sit back down to be able to move anything. I am still puzzled as to why it hurt that bad...J thinks I need to see my doctor, but finally the medicine worked so I went and bought new shoes. I think this might be part of the problem.
After the mall I was feeling much better...ever so happy was I. We all went to Friendly's and had some dinner...granted it was 10pm and we had to be somewhere by 1030pm but that is okay...she didn't mind us being late at all.
So after a completely exhausting day of work J, A, and I came home and relaxed. Everything was much better then.
ps. If anyone knows how to put comments on here, or pictures please e-mail me at darkangel81983@yahoo.com, thanks
06 December
We went to work today and left early. We will probably go to work tomorrow and leave early. It is really crappy out and I don't like this at all. Grrrrrrr......
I think I need to take a picture of my kitten. But I would need to get up which would wake her up.
I got a picture.
So I am not sure if I am going to go to work tomorrow....tonight is supposed to get worse and then tomorrow it might get a little better.
I am going to go finish my laundry. If I ever figure out how to put a picture on here I will show you them.
05 December
J and I hung out most of the day. I am very happy about this. J and I have been having some issues lately and it was good to hang out with him all day. We napped for a good part of the afternoon and we cleaned the room...which is something that really needed to be done. Tonight we are supposed to get a big storm tonight so I am really worried about him traveling right now. But he has to pick up A and no one else can.
The puppy has an infection in his liver so he has to go more medicine to keep everything in check. I am not sure how much longer he should stay around. It is starting to get cold and he can't make it up or down the stairs to get outside. I am worried about this too. Not much I can do though.
G hasn't gotten online yet and I know she got out of work at 8:30....I am not worried that she is hurt, but I am worried that she is upset about something and all I want to do is make sure she is okay. :( Maybe she will get on soon.
So I am going to do some laundry...maybe clean a little more.
I am liking this whole laptop thing. I get to stay in bed in the morning and talk to my friends and not worry about a thing.
Lately I have been really depressed. So far I have no real reason except that things are confusing and J and I aren't doing as well as I wish we were. We are hitting our two year anniversary in 6 days. I am not sure how much longer he wants to be with me. I still want to be with him. I do not want to break up with him. I do want things to change but I am not sure how they will.
Our dog is really sick. Not a good thing. He is slowly dying and as much as it hurts me to say this, I really think he should be put down. That is not something I resort to a lot. Only when it is necessary. I guess we will see what happens with that.
I am not sure how to put comments on here....or even make this look like my own blog. I had one before and I can't remember the password and the stupid internet won't send it to me...so for now I have this interesting one. Maybe someday I will have the patience to be able to do my own weblog again. not right now though.
I must go do something.
02 December
My laptop came today...I am very happy about this. Maybe now J and I won't fight about the computer any more. I just have to get a hold of him to get me some phone cords when he picks up A tonight, this way I can hook up the computer without unhooking the other computer. And eventually I am going to have Peter hook up another phone like so that I can have my internet running as well as the desktop computer running with internet too. This should be a solution to some of J and I's problems.
I made it through the weekend without too much of a problem. Sunday I thought the whole day was Monday and this makes it really confusing.
We finally got snow here. It only took until Dec. 2nd to get it, but now I know that we will have snow for Christmas and this makes me happy too.
I get to lay in bed while on the computer....this is interesting. I still can't believe that I own a laptop! Okay well I am going to download some stuff. I need all my stuff all over again.
